I go into the hospital this Wednesday for the birth of Aiden Christopher. Since Ashlyn was a c-section, I'm scheduled for another one. I am experiencing some major nostalgia right now. Troy and I have been wishing, hoping and planning for our second child what seems like forever ago. Well, after a quick nine months (honestly), it is here, and I don't feel ready at all.
I feel like I'm starting from scratch as to how to take care of an infant. I can't recall how often I am to feed a newborn, how long he/she needs to sleep, etc. Yes, these are silly things to think about I know. I think I was less anxious about bringing Ashlyn home; things just fell into place. Although this experience seems so new to me, it does seem like just the other day Troy and I were bringing Ashlyn home from the hospital. It was such a strange, wonderful feeling being a true family at that time. (It was also great coming to an empty, clean home!) Oh, the joys we have had with Ashlyn. It almost feels sad and strange to me that she will no longer be the only child. We've wanted a brother or sister for her but she's been just ours for 4 1/2 years. It is because of the wonderful joy Ashlyn has brought us that we are so excited to open our hearts even more for another one. I remember hearing people ask, "How can I love another child as much as I love my first?" My mom always told me that you love each child in a different, special way. This makes such obvious sense to me right now. As nervous as I am for the birth, I can only pray that everything will be fine and can't wait to hold Aiden very soon.
Ashlyn and I were chatting tonight lying in her bed. Such a girl...likes to chat before going to bed. I was telling her that in order for her to be pretty, she must act pretty....nice words, nice actions, etc. (This saying was said to my Mom from her mother, MeMom [whom I never got to meet], to me.) So Ashlyn went on about how she would act pretty/nice to friends. I told her she was going to be a great big sister. She then told me that I was going to make a great Mom and Dad was going to make a great Dad. Too funny and cute...almost brought tears to my eyes.
Just had to get my words down tonight. Not sure who may even read my posts, but I love to go back over them for myself.
For those that may read, please pray for a safe delivery of our healthy baby boy. Thanks.
Oh, and I am very thankful for my parents. I knew that I still had many things to get done before Aiden's arrival; however, I didn't realize how much I had to do and how time consuming those tasks would be. Troy is now off work as of tonight, but there's no way we could have managed what my parents helped with today. Thank you Mom and Dad.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
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